Midlife Crisis?

Do you ever sit back and pretend you are looking down at your life? I think I need to do that more. In my twenties, I just went about life with little reflection-- just lived in the moment I guess. In my thirties, I definitely spent more introspective time and really wondered what life would end up looking like. I was single and really seemed to be finding my niche in life: accepting the life of singleness and really embracing that for what it could be. STOP. Enter a big twist in life-- one I had desired at times although not with the same passion and drive as many women do-- marriage. I had, on and off, hoped to marry some day but really wasn't sure that would fit my life and not sure anyone could put up with my horrid perfectionism and unrealistic expectations. Now, at age 40 I find myself married nearly 6 years with a 2 yr old and 4 yr old, I must admit there are times I really feel this must all be some sort of a crazy dream (or nightmare I must admit at times!) I think I'm back in that 20's mode of just living life with little reflection. It seems life gets so hectic taking care of everyone else that I've really not spent much time on me. Well, time for that to change. It's time I find the me in Melinda!!! Maybe this is what they call a Midlife Crisis!!! :)